Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Reality


Just a comment on how we can not change our parents. Maddening as that is, we just can't, we will never have what we deserve. Period. The best hope is the next generation. Your mother/father will never be that parent that you deserve. They are too tied up in their own webs of narcissism/depression whatever it is. We can not change it, but we can embrace the suffering and find transcendence there. And, we can dedicate song to them via the Universe. ;-)-



"32 Flavors" by Ani DiFranco


squint your eyes and look closer
I'm not between you and your ambition
I am a poster girl with no poster
I am thirty-two flavors and then some
and I'm beyond your peripheral vision
so you might want to turn your head
cause someday you're going to get hungry
and eat most of the words you just said

both my parents taught me about good will
and I have done well by their names
just the kindness I've lavished on strangers
is more than I can explain
still there's many who've turned out their porch lights
just so I would think they were not home
and hid in the dark of their windows
til I'd passed and left them alone

and god help you if you are an ugly girl
course too pretty is also your doom
cause everyone harbors a secret hatred
for the prettiest girl in the room
and god help you if you are a
Phoenix
and you dare to rise up from the ash
a thousand eyes will smolder with jealousy
while you are just flying back

I'm not trying to give my life meaning
by demeaning you
and I would like to state for the record
I did everything that I could do
I'm not saying that I'm a saint
I just don't want to live that way
no, I will never be a saint
but I will always say

squint your eyes and look closer
I'm not between you and your ambition
I am a poster girl with no poster
I am thirty-two flavors and then some
And I'm beyond your peripheral vision
So you might want to turn your head
Cause someday you might find you're starving
and eating all of the words you said

4 comments:

Marj aka Thriver said...

I guess I'm really embracing the suffering right now., But I know, overall, I am transcending all the time. Thanks for the reminder and for sharing the really cool poem.

Sarah Elise Stauffer said...

I'm deep in grief myself. My healing thoughts are with you, dear.

Holly/Admin said...

Hi Sarah,
Courage for your post! Healing thoughts for future change!
Take care

Sarah Elise Stauffer said...

Thank you Holly!!