tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.comments2023-05-16T08:16:52.761-04:00SATORI, Sexual Abuse Thrivers Of Rape and IncestAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comBlogger87125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-76163424109726489212009-04-27T18:07:00.000-04:002009-04-27T18:07:00.000-04:00So much good information. Thank you for posting!So much good information. Thank you for posting!Just Be Realhttp://justbereal77.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-88374259854747769362009-04-15T10:59:00.000-04:002009-04-15T10:59:00.000-04:00Hey! Welcome to MBC. I am so glad that I found you...Hey! Welcome to MBC. I am so glad that I found you. I feel as if I found another sister. I am also a survivor of sexual abuse. I have been on a healing path now for about 15 years now. I live in Freedom and have come on the other side of the dark valley of trauma. <br /><br />I am so thrilled to see a blog dedicated to helping other precious woman onto the other side. <br /><br />Your newest follower! <br />MESavvy-Motherhoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11862870782380728064noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-55897808254098710562009-03-27T11:44:00.000-04:002009-03-27T11:44:00.000-04:00Anon,The choice is obviously not regarding when we...Anon,<BR/>The choice is obviously not regarding when we are kids..or even when we are still in the dark as you describe. The choice comes when it comes..I'm not implying you did anything wrong at all, just the opposite. EVENTUALLY, in my opinion, once we have had our "enlightened witness" experience, some sort of venue/alternative reality presented to us..which can be anything, a person, a tv show, a piece of art, music, the list goes on and is different for all, but once we have seen any alternative, in my mind, we make a choice.just by reading this blog you are choosing to see yourself as worthy of healing and thriving..to heal or not. I used to do a lot of drugs, and I remember having a slight ray of light shown to me during those times, but I still ignored it...the choice is in my mind later on, when we are young adults/adults usually...and, you know, is also an every day process. I have to choose every single day when I wake up whether or not to continue to heal, go to difficult therapy sessions, (I don't always want to go and in fact have struggled with going a lot) learn more about self care, parenting, how I will talk to myself in my own head, how I choose to look at myself, etc. So if you have ever read Maya Angelou, or experienced the love of an animal, or seen a sunrise, there is beauty that you are a part of in this world, that you deserve and that is for you. Good luck and welcome to SATORI!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-55473593847408864102009-03-27T11:34:00.000-04:002009-03-27T11:34:00.000-04:00Gavin de B. is amazing!!Gavin de B. is amazing!!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-46043109894594866082009-03-25T23:22:00.000-04:002009-03-25T23:22:00.000-04:00You mention choices, choosing. There is not alway...You mention choices, choosing. There is not always a recognizable choice, however. I grew up in the dual reality scenario - perfect, universally adored parents to the outside world while there was incest and neglect unseen. I disappeared as a child but presented to the world the perfect child who was actually attempting to heal, fix and manage the monsters at home. I put it all away, into a box to be buried until I could no longer keep it hidden. Even I did not know the truth. How could I CHOOSE? I led an extraordinary life, committed to saving the world with my superpowers, and yes, committed to caring for the family of origin in my fog of delusion. We do not always have a choice. I lived a life of no-self, and consumed with self-loathing for some assumption that I MUST HAVE done something so unspeakable to have the darkness I had inside me - there was no choice. I had no access to truth. I believed fully that I had no right to live, because it is the message that was given to me through every venue. I earned each day through my good deeds. Now, I know some of what happened and can assume much more. There is so little self remaining - being cheered on to "choose" feels like an invalidation of the reality with which I am faced. I applaud your beautiful sentiment, truly; I simply must explain that I do not believe we always have a choice.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-50760987979777763312009-03-21T06:00:00.000-04:002009-03-21T06:00:00.000-04:00Thank you so much for sharing this important infor...Thank you so much for sharing this important information. Blessings!!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-32542023624915571202009-03-11T19:37:00.000-04:002009-03-11T19:37:00.000-04:00Thank you Holly!!Thank you Holly!!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-90066635284267425492009-02-26T13:28:00.000-05:002009-02-26T13:28:00.000-05:00Hi Sarah,Courage for your post! Healing thoughts f...Hi Sarah,<BR/>Courage for your post! Healing thoughts for future change! <BR/>Take careAdminhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11147942415541337701noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-27753971215784612492009-02-23T20:31:00.000-05:002009-02-23T20:31:00.000-05:00I'm deep in grief myself. My healing thoughts are ...I'm deep in grief myself. My healing thoughts are with you, dear.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-55119886730470243762009-02-23T20:13:00.000-05:002009-02-23T20:13:00.000-05:00I guess I'm really embracing the suffering right n...I guess I'm really embracing the suffering right now., But I know, overall, I am transcending all the time. Thanks for the reminder and for sharing the really cool poem.Marj aka Thriverhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06825698906631474866noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-69457506992397006002009-02-17T17:54:00.000-05:002009-02-17T17:54:00.000-05:00I can not get over this freaking poem, it is so br...I can not get over this freaking poem, it is so brilliant.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-19751252860693790552009-02-17T13:13:00.000-05:002009-02-17T13:13:00.000-05:00Marj, I understand the lack of energy! I saw a pic...Marj, I understand the lack of energy! I saw a pic of my grandmother-by chance via a friend on FB who still rides on their farm....which sparked the poem....Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-42297723895351820792009-02-13T19:46:00.000-05:002009-02-13T19:46:00.000-05:00Love the poem. Powerful. I've been writing a lot...Love the poem. Powerful. I've been writing a lot of poetry myself lately. But, mostly short forms. I guess I just don't have the energy. Thanks for sharing.Marj aka Thriverhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06825698906631474866noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-11080791396820074762009-02-11T12:09:00.000-05:002009-02-11T12:09:00.000-05:00HOLY SHIT. This is awesome, Sarah. DAMNHOLY SHIT. This is awesome, Sarah. DAMNAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-13375290810632807792009-02-08T08:55:00.000-05:002009-02-08T08:55:00.000-05:00Valerie!This brings me to tears. The beauty of thi...Valerie!<BR/>This brings me to tears. The beauty of this is that what you are saying, THAT is why I write this blog. I do it to express myself and my own experiences, my path, and hope it will resonate for others. <BR/>I am so proud of you for having the courage it takes to choose a healing path...you are treating your child with that you did not get. Reverence, awe, respect, love. <BR/>You are breaking the cycle and having to face that you were not loved by your own birth vessel. That is the hardest truth to accept. The hardest. But I truly believe that's where the change comes, the cycle can be broken there..though it hurts so much...it benefits the new generation, the new family tree beyond belief to do what you are doing. <BR/>I thank you for being a brave woman and mother. I thank you for surviving. I thank you for being open to healing. I thank you for being you and expressing yourself to me this way. Please keep in touch! Many Blessings.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-6566085279951547262009-02-08T00:52:00.000-05:002009-02-08T00:52:00.000-05:00Hi. I am not sure how to go about this because I d...Hi. I am not sure how to go about this because I don't know you and I feel kind of odd about it, but I feel the need to let you know how profoundly this blog post has affected me. I am a single mother, relatively young, from a neglectful/abusive family. I have slowly been trying to heal from my past, while building a future. I practiced attachment parenting with my daughter, and I am proud of my mothering skills, but something always nagged at me - would I turn out to be like my mother? I mean, I am off to a good start, but would it happen eventually? And why was it so hard for her to love and care about me, but its so easy for me to love and care for my child?<BR/><BR/>I honestly believed I was alone in my fears, and that I was destined to make the same mistakes my parents did. I cannot tell you HOW relieving it was to stumble upon your post and see that there are other mothers out there from similar pasts, who ARE amazing mothers! That it can be done! That it truly isn't my fault that I wasn't loved or cared for! Other worthwhile wonderful children were hurt too! For no reason! There's absolutely no reason! I can stop looking!<BR/><BR/>Therapists have told me this for years, but for some reason, your words have been the only ones that have truly resonated with me and given me hope. I truly, deeply thank you for writing what you did. You have saved a complete stranger from despair.scandalabrahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02582462652273907605noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-12516647457048313902009-02-05T23:24:00.000-05:002009-02-05T23:24:00.000-05:00I love your poem. Beautiful!I love your poem. Beautiful!dixie-crickethttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07607215826591590030noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-53698667137529559082009-01-30T00:16:00.000-05:002009-01-30T00:16:00.000-05:00Hey! We seem to have a few things in common :) I...Hey! <BR/>We seem to have a few things in common :) I got into natural stuff when I was pregnant and have been passionate about it ever since. <BR/>Did you see Ricki Lake's documentary on childbirth in the US? It discusses the medicalization of birth and the midwifrey model of care as an alternative for low risk mothers. Here is a link to the trailer, in case you are interested(It's one of my more specific "crunchy" interests).<BR/>http://thebusinessofbeingborn.com/ <BR/>I am enjoying your blog :)dixie-crickethttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07607215826591590030noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-3304701233017656992009-01-25T10:29:00.000-05:002009-01-25T10:29:00.000-05:00This is wonderful, more of this!This is wonderful, more of this!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-38281012121642697542009-01-18T15:28:00.000-05:002009-01-18T15:28:00.000-05:00Lady, you are awesome. What a great source you hav...Lady, you are awesome. What a great source you have going here.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-84432645390092815662009-01-11T17:33:00.000-05:002009-01-11T17:33:00.000-05:00wow, again! What a gift for writing, not to menti...wow, again! <BR/><BR/>What a gift for writing, not to mention rising above pain, you have.<BR/><BR/>Thanks for visiting my blog too.Emilyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06298239642668740696noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-67968597845044093482009-01-11T13:21:00.000-05:002009-01-11T13:21:00.000-05:00Sarah, this is wonderful and reminds me of somethi...Sarah, this is wonderful and reminds me of something you would write or publish. You have a real intuitive blessing. Thank you for exposing your travels and mind heart journies and for all you do, One Love.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-33674794127994715232009-01-01T17:37:00.000-05:002009-01-01T17:37:00.000-05:00Thanks Emily!Thanks Emily!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-66824307056614601162008-12-28T23:04:00.000-05:002008-12-28T23:04:00.000-05:00man.. what a great essay.man.. what a great essay.Emilyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06298239642668740696noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2209508422530294278.post-65951287063387882722008-12-17T12:57:00.000-05:002008-12-17T12:57:00.000-05:00she really is. unbelievable, I have 2 kids, and I ...she really is. unbelievable, I have 2 kids, and I can not imagine wanting 'freedom' that badly...it's not always easy but having children and being a mother to me IS freedom! the selfishness is almost surreal. but what is beneath that veneer is what really interests me. <BR/>and THANK you, I love your blog. It's very cool. I'll be linking you here too.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com